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6 Feb 2012

within-without

(both thrifted finds)


When I was a child and teen, I could sit with my nose and mind buried in a book, in the same or adjoining room where my parents chatted, laughed, and debated with friends. I could wrap a porous barrier around myself without effort.

It only took 5 weeks (visiting family in England) but finally I slipped into inner peace. It was like eyelids closing after a long day - natural, effortless, surrender.

I've had many people, including myself in the past, say to me that peace is within. I learnt this. I know this. I live this.

However, I believe that whilst a Tibetan monk could enter deep trance in the middle of a disco, he would prefer a stream and willow tree to sit under.

I can find peace within, in the midst of family noise and craziness, and visiting obligations, and personality clashes, and city shopping.... but my choice is nature, space, simplicity, and external silence.


read: finished Maugham's collection. 4/5
taste: pave d'affinois brie
see: Woody, (Helena) & Sorvino in Mighty Aphrodite, 3/5
hear: Miss 3's screams of joy at finally getting to play with snow
touch: snowballs
think: of leaving the house at 5am and our flight back home tomorrow
feel: apprehensive relief

27 comments:

  1. ditto ...

    by the way I am going to buy this Maugham's collection : )

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  2. amen to that.

    (she writes from the blissful solitude of the early morning)

    safe travels...
    xo

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  3. i agree. Travel safe home :)
    xo sandra

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  4. "It was like eyelids closing after a long day - natural, effortless, surrender. " Wonderful. And snow play for Miss 3!! now that is joy!!
    safe travels home Mon...
    xo

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  5. I crave external silence, at least a little bit ever day. It's calming and I come up with my best ideas, when alone and all is quiet. The next step is trying to find that inner peace. I'm way too distracted by the outside world.

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  6. 5 weeks is a long time to be inside of someone else's space and in close proximity to their bodies. i'm not sure i would be able to manage the peace. i lean to nature, as well. i can not help it. it is a blank canvas that allows me to be.

    yes, safe travels home))

    xo
    erin

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  7. It is a precious gift to find peace within the midst of noise, so how precious a reward of external tranquility! Like the soft hush of a snow blanket with a warm fire in the hearth!

    Safe journey to your sweet pod,

    Sue x

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  8. I wonder, how does your family react. I can (need to) find peace anywhere, but it's usually not well-received. how to explain that you're not being un-social but need some alone time???

    have a safe trip home!

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  9. a Tibetan monk meditating at a disco? now I would like to see that ;-)

    have a safe journey home!

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  10. I will keep the visual of the monk in the disco - I will learn from your perfect example. Safe travels back home, and thanks for the visual of Miss 3s laughter in the snow, Monica!

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  11. I do believe we make our own peace, but I very much like extending that to the world around me as well. I also think the way we interact with the world allows us to find that peace within. For me, it's keeping my spaces clean and organized and exercising regularly. Somehow those acts allow me to retreat when I need to and be calm.

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  12. Peaceful solitude. I understand.

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  13. Many posts I read today are about peace, simplicity, and joy. We hunger for these elements to be in our lives.

    Thank you for sharing.

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  14. this is exactly what motherhood has taught me...and snow, how fun

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  15. I also, could lose myself in a book, or whatever I gave full attention too. Still can. Usually, I chose the right thing to focus on, but it would make me dead to the world. When I was little, they had to check my hearing because of it, but I was fine. People just need to touch me to get my attention and then I'm allll yours. These days, I fake that I'm paying attention when I'm not (without even realizing) and then suddenly come out of wherever I was and realize that I had technically heard something, but had NO idea what it was. It's not so bad now, but still kinda funny. At work, I'm always focused on work, so its never a problem.

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  16. I just stumbled on your blog today, and so glad I did [following!]...such lovely content & images.

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  17. I love that place - the quiet place. :) I completely understand. also, your "hear" for today melts my heart!

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  18. True. I am the same way. Mostly. I can find it in nature, but mostly I can find it at my home, there where I have chosen to wrap my energy and bind it to what I find beautiful and joyful. I live in the city. I am at peace with that when I am at home.

    We really have so much in common. When I was younger, well, even now, all I wanted to do was read. Even during break at school - all I wanted was to be left alone to sit and read my book.

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  19. PS - thanks for the reminder in the story of the example of the monk: I always feel so inadequate when I can't reach my zen when I need it most. But like you said, it takes time and practice, and obviously ideal circumstances are preferred.

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    1. yes. i think a lot of us are too hard on ourselves. in the pursuit of mindfulness, we've made the goal everything, and then feel frustration, guilt, disappointment, impatience.
      we tell ourselves it's the journey, not the goal, but live differently. it's taken me many, maaany, years to get to a place of real acceptance (most of the time!), where imperfection is beautiful, where being chilled out and relaxed is as zen as much as deep meditation. where laughing at myself and being human is a sacred experience.

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  20. I definitely need to learn to find peace in any situation. I hope you have a safe trip home...thinking of you dear lady!

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  21. Always wonderful to visit your blog and get a view into your thoughts of reading... I am so recognizing myself.
    Have a great trip back!

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  22. isn't it interesting what family does to us? hope you had a beautiful trip home!

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  23. "I can find peace within, in the midst of family noise and craziness, and visiting obligations, and personality clashes, and city shopping.... but my choice is nature, space, simplicity, and external silence."

    Hi there! I'm new to your blog and instantly smitten. The above sentence read like butter. Beautiful, soulful prose. Thanks for sharing!

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  24. Beautiful post, Monica! I could shut out the outside world and read in the middle of noise when I was younger, but these days I too prefer calm and quiet.

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